Here is a short recap of my experiences with God.

The day after my 31st birthday, while in quiet, I heard a clear, distinct voice. There was no mistaking this voice; it was the voice of God. God relayed four messages to me. The second message (I do not believe that I am supposed to share the first message) was, "You have been given the gift of healing." The third message was, "You will lead man away from suffering." The fourth message was, "There is nothing to fear." That entire week I heard the same four messages over and over again. A few months later, while taking a break from watching a movie on television, I felt compelled to listen to God's voice. God repeated the same four messages and added, "You will awaken to this knowledge in your 31st year." At that point, I remembered that I had heard these four messages, and the instruction that I would realize my gift in my 31st year, at the time of my birth or even before my actual birth. The experience was so strong that I felt I was actually transported to that pre-birth period where I first heard the messages, and I understood that I was now awakening to God's plan for me; that this experience was unfolding perfectly.

After meditation in the morning, I was compelled to begin a writing exercise recommended by Barbara Marx Hubbard. While journal writing, I began to ask God questions and leave space for replies. Almost instantly I experienced a form of automatic writing in which my questions were being answered in a "voice" clearly not my own. The style of writing and even some vocabulary were unfamiliar to me, and I believe that these writings are communications from God. After a short while, I began to feel like rather than a form of automatic writing, the messages were a more controlled, active dialogue with God. I began to journal God's messages. These messages have been given to me in order to teach me how to love myself.

About three months ago, I had a phone conversation with the secretary of a well-known author. At the time, she was experiencing some health problems, but I had no way of knowing this. When I next spoke with her after a few weeks had passed, she told me that she had had an "instantaneous healing" immediately after our initial conversation. She said her hands and arms were healed from age-related ailments and arthritis, to the point where she was unable to open jars and had no real range of motion. Her husband witnessed the change in her movement and called it a miracle.

I spoke to her again some time later, and performed another healing over the phone because of some excruciating back pain that confined her to bed. Shortly thereafter, her physician-ordered physical therapy was cut short and he told her it was almost "miraculous" how she had recovered and sent her home.

I have also been working with the well-known author. His age-related ailments have also improved to the point that he now swims in his lake and rides his bicycle up and down the hills near his home (that was his dream when he moved in to his house). I am honored to be of any assistance to him, a man whose work I admire and who has been a great supporter of my own path.

I know this gift is from God and was given to me to share with the world. What it is I can only speculate. What I have been told is that the "energy" is unconditional love. While I am doing a healing, I feel an energy swirling in my heart area. I feel as if my heart is bursting open. I feel heat, pressure, density, pin pricks, and other sensations in my hands. While I am present in a healing, I am unconditional love.

I see others as God sees them: as pure beauty and love. When in this state, I have moments of feeling/expressing God. My purpose is to become unconditional love. What I have been told is that Jesus, for example, was able to heal because he was living, breathing, unconditional love: the human embodiment of this higher love. Unconditional love heals all and casts out illness. My messages indicate that Jesus said we could all aspire to be him; I believe he was saying that we could all aspire to be unconditional love. This is the journey I am on.

I do not know where the journey will take me nor do I know what other beautiful experiences I will encounter. What I am certain of is that God is leading me.

With Love,